So....It's 5am again.

It's 5am yet again and here I am still awake. No surprise I'm sure. I can't think of anything else to do and since I haven't blogged since the 11th I thought maybe I could give those of you who actually read this an update on my life. I turned 22 on the 22nd of this month and I must say that I really don't feel any different which is probably normal. I recently went to renew my drivers license and with the help of my parents I passed the renewal test and got my new drivers license. I must say even though the picture on it looks horrible it certainly looks better than the one I took when I was 17. Even the person that took my picture agreed. She even said that I had lost some weight since then. Which I am glad that I had since that was 5 years ago in April. Although I still really don't see the point in renewing it since no one has let me drive since 2005, But the point still remains well pointless if you ask me. But my mother forced me to get it saying "It's better to have it than not" Plus she wanted me to renew it before my birthday that way I wouldn't have to retake the driving part which in my mind probably wouldn't have been all that bad then I could have refreshed my memory and then still known how to drive. I am not saying I don't know how to drive it's just I haven't had that much experience behind the wheel of a car thanks to my parents who said they would continue to teach me by letting me drive but never the less they did not keep that promise but oh well it's all in the past now and seeing as I am never going to be able to afford a car I really don't see the point in talking about something that is pointless to begin with. So I guess that when my mother says drop the subject I have no other choice but to drop it. So ok consider the topic dropped. I have to face the fact that no one is ever going to get me a car and I will never be able to afford a car. And seeing as I don't really have the kind of family to just leave me a car none the less give me a car for no reason that subject can be dropped as well I'm sure. On to other things. I decided to treat myself with some things that I have been wanting for a while and chose to buy them online. Two of the four different packages have been delivered however I had to reorder the two shirts that I bought because they did not fit me. But they should be on their way soon. The other two I'm afraid won't make it cause it's been 3 weeks since I have ordered them and it took them almost 2 weeks to take the money out of my account and then finally they said that they would be shipped. But it concerns me because I have never ordered from the two sites (owned by the same company I might add.) But if they do not come soon I am going to have to call them and I really want to tell them that they should give their customers some way of tracking their orders because then their customers (such as myself) Would be in some sort of ease that their packages are going to actually arrive instead of thinking that they have been ripped off because the site has taken their money and given them no way to track their orders. But that's just me and I suppose I am a bit paranoid. I don't know if I have mentioned this in any of my previous posts but I am trying to go back to school to become a phlebotomist. And to be able to do so I have to pass a test called the compass test. Which includes Reading Writing and Math. I have taken this test 2 times so far and I have failed the math part both times. Math was never really my strong suit and well lets be honest I never really did that well in high school and seeing as I was never actually taught algebra it is all still so very strange to me. Therefore that is why I think I am having a huge problem with the test. I did very well on the writtig part the first time which comes to no surprise since I am a writer but the reading only got me because it was a test where you have to read several paragraphs and then answer a series of questions. I guess the reason I didn't pass that was was because I was getting impatient and was tired of sitting in an uncomfortable chair at a very cramped desk with no room to stretch out and well get comfortable. I am glad that school wasn't like that or I would have never gone. Yes granted I hardly ever went as it was but I still managed to pass. I have my diploma on the wall as prof of that. Lol So back to the reason I brought up the test. I was having problems with the math. So I decided that in order for me to pass it I needed the tutoring I thought I was giving myself. And wow were my eyes opened up! Let me tell you, from the 10 or so minutes I was able to get in on Tuesday I learned some things that I didn't think could be done on a calculator!!! I was all like you can really do that?! And omg I didn't know that! It's amazing what you can learn when someone actually takes the time to show you what can be learned. So I am going back today in fact to get a little more tutoring and then take the test and hopefully pass the damn thing. I'm sure I will be able to if I know how to use the scientific calculator. But then again I really don't know what I will need math for in phlebotomy but if they say I need it I will do it. Lol Who really needs math anyways..Sometimes I think who ever invented 2+2 should be shot but then again people wouldn't know how to give you your change back. But....Then again what are computers for..Lol I don't really know what else to talk about. I guess I could talk about how I think I may have become paranoid. But that should just be kept locked away in my mind. However my mom said that sometimes people with bi polar disorder can sometimes develop paranoia. So maybe. She said that if I were checked out today now that I am an adult that I might have it. Since people under 18 can't have it which is weird you either have it or you don't but they ruled it out when I was younger so who knows I might have it now. I don't even think I have my depression problem anymore but I doubt that goes away with age. But then again maybe I do since I am still very anti-social. But oh well it's not like that really matters. Well since I have run out of things to talk about I guess I should bid my a dues and then just click post. So I bid my few non existent readers a due and I am clicking post now...Bye..Lol

Update

Hello again to those who actually read this thing. Well I just thought that since I haven’t given an update for quit some time perhaps I should.

I spent my 4th of July weekend at the Winfield Lake camping with my family. It was nice till it started to rain and everyone’s tents got flooded. But other than that I had a good time…Yea I wanted to go home after the rain the next morning at first but I decided that since no one was going to drive me all the way back to Wichita I was stuck and should make the best of it. I got a little sun burnt but thankfully it didn’t stick. And I am now alright. We are actually thinking about going camping one more time this summer or what is left of it anyway. I can’t wait I know it will be fun. We are actually considering going to Lake Afton or maybe the one in El Dorado or something I don’t know what my parents have decided yet. I know that there was also talking about inviting my step mother’s parents but I am not a %100 sure about that…I mean they are old and not much fun…Sorry…But that’s how I feel and you know it (Talking to the step mother)

Onto more important things…Lol I mean I am turning 22 in a few short weeks…On the 22nd to be exact. I don’t really know what is going to happen.. I wanted to go see the new Harry Potter movie for my birthday but seeing as my parents aren’t into that sort of thing I will more than likely be going with my brothers only. They want to see it too. In my own celebration for myself I did something I have never done before…Well without the help of my parents and all that. I treated myself to some things I have been wanting for a long time. I ordered some things online. I can’t wait till they get here. I ordered from two different sites from the same company. Lol I got this cute little gothic purse and a quill and some ink. And I finally got the pentacle I wanted. But there was this other pendant that I wanted but I didn’t want to spend all my money. I can get it another time I’m sure. It was this really nice rose pendant. I have been searching for that rose pendant for quite some time. I saw it in a picture and have wanted it ever since and now I know where I can get it I am sure I will get it eventually.

One thing I am hoping to do around my birthday is go see my family. I just don’t think it’s fair that my parent’s get to go see my step mom’s parents once a month and I have to wait a long time before I can go see my family but that’s ok I understand. I mean it’s their transportation and all but I just really miss my family. In other news Neko is doing very well after having her female parts taken out and her front claws removed. Still as feisty as ever and just the same old happy kitty. I love her so dearly. She is actually laying behind me sleeping…She is so adorable when she sleeps.

About 3 maybe 4 months ago I started playing World of Warcraft. But quickly grew tired of it. I was hacked and couldn’t play for a while and so I had them shut my payment account and have now realized that it wasn’t all that much fun once my friends that were playing with me decided to go elsewhere and not play with me anymore. But oh well I don’t have to pay the monthly fee anymore. I think I am done with MMRPGs for now. (Or whatever they are called) Oh well. I had fun while it lasted. But now it’s over and I am happy I had fun and if I ever want to play again I have the CD and my account is still open. So I can re download it back onto my computer if I so choose…Anyways I am going to go watch tv or some thing I really shouldn’t go to sleep in case I don’t wake up till 2pm or something. So I bid all those who read this a due!