why?

Why are people almost everywhere idiots? I am playing this game on Myspace called Vampires and it's like people on there are really stupid. Ok it's the type of game where you basically fend for yourself except you can also have clan members (people to help you) You can also put people on a list called a hitlist. So other Vampires can take care of bigger Vampires that you can handle. (Who usually attack you first.) Now I started playing this and decided that I would put anyone on the hitlist that attacks me or puts me on the hitlist. But apparently that's not how you play the game. But for some reason there really isn't any wrong or right way to play this game and people keep telling me that's not how you play. I have actually gotten bitched out several times by people I have done this to. And a few of them I have actually ended up putting them in my clan. And what I really hate is when someone who is a sore looser goes and starts leaving rude or "whiny" comments on my profile because they don't like the fact that I hitlist them. I have seriously thought about stop playing because I am tired of people bitching. And oh I love this part when someone actually threatens me because I don't play the way they do. Or they say they are going to "sit" on my profile and continue to hitlist me because I put them on it a few times. And they didn't like it. But they are just all idiots. I wish people would just get over it and realize that it's just a fucking game! I mean come on why fuss over something that isn't real? I just don't get it. But whatever.

Other than that bullshit. Neko is going to get fixed Friday. I just don't think I can really handle another one of her hot flashes. I really don't like seeing her ass in my face. And not to mention I can't handle the fact that she might spray my furniture again if I decide to have a friend spend the night again. It just isn't right and it's not clean. And even though my furniture is already crappy. I don't like the fact that she tears it up either. So she is getting her front claws removed too. I know people keep telling me that I shouldn't but the fact of the matter is that she is never going to be an outside cat again.

I have been gathering a lot of weird information lately like people I know that have STD's now and it's like I don't really want to know that but I'll keep it in mind to never do anything with that person. I found out that this chick I know is dating this guy I really like or used to really like. And I just don't see him and her as the right kind of couple. Or rather they just shouldn't be together and I know some people who read this and say oh she's just jealous. But believe me when I say this I'm not. But I just hope they don't end up hurting each other because then I will have to deal with his grumpiness and I'll have to feel like I have to consol her and I really don't see her as that close of a friend. But oh well. And not to mention he's just not right for her and she's really not right for him. This guy kinda upsets me because of the way he choses to pick girls to go out with. But I guess if he doesn't want to go out with me because he thinks there is something wrong with me then that's his loss I say.

I'm happy that my family has decided to have family game night at my paren'ts house. It's been really fun the last two times we've done it and it always leaves you..Wanting to play more...Lol. My brother actually turned 24 this last Sunday and it happened to be game night. That was fun. I'm really worried about my mom. And I feel selfish because she lost her medical card and I got to keep mine. The state made her take SSDI because she can't work anymore. And since I was approved for SSI before I turned 22 I would draw off her and get SSDI also but she didn't want me to have it if that meant I lost my benefits such as food stamps, rental assistance, and medical card. So she made it where I could still get all of that but they would still give me SSDI. But I still feel selfish because her health problems are way worse than mine. With her back and her being diabetic and all. I just wish there were a way she could keep her medical card and not have to pay for doctor visits. The only way she could have done that was to get a spend down which would mean that she would have to pay like $5,000 every six months. And she couldn't afford that. So she didn't do it. And I don't blame her.

Well I really should be getting to bed. It's almost 4 in the morning. So I bid you adue.

Just a tiny update

Though I don't know why I just feel like typing at the moment. I really wish I had a car. And I won't be able to afford one for a while. So I guess I have to continue riding the bus and every once in a while asking people for a ride. If I had a car I know I would not be held up in my apartment so much. I would be able to go places and not have to depend on other people to give me a ride. Like if I wanted to go to my brother's house I could go and he wouldn't feel obligated to have to take me home at like 1 or 2 in the morning. But on a different note. I am supposed to have a dentist appointment this thursday but I think I am going to have to cancel it again because the young adults are going out to eat and I really want to go. So I guess I will have to reschedule for May.

I have been talking to Issac again. But I'm not going to make the same mistakes I made in the past with him cause I have come to the conclusion that our friendship can never be the way it was in the past. So when he comes up to breakthrough we go out back and smoke and have these long really nice talks that I've really missed. And we have even talked on the phone a few times but I have sworn to myself that I will never let him know where I live cause I don't want him coming over drunk or anything. And I know that he lives not that far from me. Ok maybe he does live a ways from me. He lives on Oliver but way down by Pawnee. But we are strickly going to just hang out at breakthrough.

Lets see what else can I talk about? I believe that my mom is going to help get Neko fixed next month. So I can't wait for that cause I really can't take another month of her being in heat. So I'm going to get her fixed. Cause she did something that really pissed me off the other night when a friend spent the night. She got up on the couch and looked at me and just pissed all over the arm of the couch. And I later learned that she was pissed off at me for letting someone spend the night that she had never met before. But what really confused me was that she was actually really friendly with Tamisha. So I was pissed. She was marking her territory. So I guess whatever. My mom did some research and found out that if I get her fixed she would no longer do that so I can't wait to get her fixed.

Well we are getting ready to go out on an activity to New Market Square so I really need to get off of here. So laters people.