A New Year Already?

Well a new year has come. It seems like it was just yesterday that it was the beginning of 2008. But alas time flies. I started a job and then lost it. I was told that I could work there for 2 weeks as a trial basis and then they would see how I worked out. Well what they didn't know is that it's illegal to have someone work for you and do work related stuff and not pay them. So I thought that I was just going to have to work out something with my Vocational Rehab case manager and just get paid through SRS but I was wrong. The person I was going to be working for had to know that it was illegal. So now I am no longer working there and my VR case manager is supposed to be working out something called a CBJT (Community Based Job Trial) But it's been two weeks. So I guess I won't be getting that job back. Which kind of pisses me off because it was literally right around the corner from where I live and I could just walk to work. The work wasn't all that bad either. I was doing a great job. The person that owns the business also said that I could work for her for 1o hours a week and she would pay me. But I don't know if I should do it. I didn't mind working a 9-2 job. It was fun too.

Well other than that not much has happened really. I don't have that many friends and I feel like no one wants to hang out with me. Not even my brother wants to hang out with me and it makes me feel very unwanted. So I've mostly been held up in my apartment. Wasting away I feel. Watching tv and getting online. And well looking after my cat more than myself. But that doesn't matter. Speaking of my cat, Neko is getting big and she's only 6 months old. She's still adorable.

Back to the subject of a new year. I have decided to see how much weight I can loose in one year. I know that I am not a very big person on excercising but I will just have to find a reason to do it. I have to loose weight because I know that it's my weight that is stoping me from finding love and having friends. Maybe that's the reason no one wants to hang out with me...I have no clue. I find myself crying a lot more because I long for friendship. But I also know I can't make friends if I don't go anywhere. But the problem is that I don't know anywhere where I can go to meet people. It's not like I am made of money and well to be honest I just don't know my way around Wichita anymore. And to be honest I don't think I ever really did. Place to hang out that is. I just don't know what I am going to do about this no friends thing. So I suppose I can just forget about if for now.

I don't really know what else to say so I guess this the end of this entry. Thanks for reading LaChalle. I bid you adu.